God's Provision

Jehovah Yireh-The Lord Will Provide

It's funny because sometimes in Christendom I can say things without fully understanding the implication of what I'm saying. And one common expression I've used before in prayer has been " Oh Lord, you are Jehovah Yireh" and I know I've said it with extra "uuummph" as if somehow praying God's name in Hebrew was going to catapult a host of results to unanswered prayers.

Somehow, I'm still waiting for the heavens to quake and bring forth rain upon my beckoning.

I don't think anyone ever fully understands what it means to trust in the Lord in the area of provision unless they've had to wait on Him. And in this season of waiting on the Lord for provision for multiple things ( call me and we can discuss) I have learned that dramatically calling out the name of Jehovah Yireh in eager expectation that He will answer does not stop the chilling disappointment of Him not answering at the time or in the way that I would like Him to.
Disappointment reminds me of murky gray waves crashing against the littered Jersey seashore .
I've really struggled since coming back from Uganda. I haven't had a steady job, I am trying to embrace a new church community, and I feel like many of my frienships are changing so I feel lonely, nervous, and afraid all at the same time.

HOWEVER, despite all of that God has showed himself to be beyond faithful. And the funny thing is, He has shown me that he is Jehovah Yireh. Even when life feels like it punched me in the gut and knocked my wind out, He is Jehovah Yireh because He has provided ALREADY for us by giving us Jesus.


And Jesus is enough.

-Tremonisha